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Out on September 22nd, the musician, songwriter and former Rosenbergs frontman recounts his unlikely journey from an early internet-era battle with Universal Music and partnership with Napster to Robert Fripp, Jimmy Iovine, Howard Stern, Gene Simmons, Duran Duran, Oasis and decades of glorious near-misses. Listen to a preview of the audiobook, narrated by none other than the author himself

Hours before the biggest concert of his life, David Fagin was sitting in a New Jersey jail cell for stealing supermarket sushi.   His band, The Rosenbergs, was scheduled to open for Duran Duran at Jones Beach that evening. Miraculously, Fagin got bailed out of jail, fought his way through hours of Long Island traffic and still managed to make it to the gig on time.   Ironically, nearly 25 years later, he found himself in an Atlantic City nightclub playing an afterparty, for who else, but Duran Duran with his cover band The Counterfeiters. The fine line between “making it” and “falling short”  is at the heart of Confessions of a Musical Masochist: My Life As An Almost Rockstar, Fagin’s candid, funny and frequently unbelievable new memoir, out September 22, 2026 via Scout Media in association with Noshpit Entertainment.   With a foreword by journalist Rob Tannenbaum, co-author of I Want My MTV, the book traces nearly four decades of chasing a career in music through record deals, disastrous tours, industry feuds, empty clubs, national television, celebrity encounters, financial calamities and repeated opportunities to quit that Fagin somehow never took.   As Fagin writes early in the book: “Be prepared to have a safe dropped on your head 363 days a year. Once or twice a year, there’ll be a gig that makes everything feel worth it. A night where you think, This. This is why I do this.”   At the center of the story is The Rosenbergs, the New Jersey power-pop band Fagin formed in the 1990s. After years of showcases, personnel changes and near-deals with major labels, the group suddenly became a music-industry cause célèbre at the dawn of the digital era.   In 1999, The Rosenbergs were invited to perform on Farmclub.com, the heavily financed Universal Music TV show and label venture launched by Jimmy Iovine and Doug Morris. When Fagin received the performance agreement, he was stunned by what he viewed as an extraordinarily restrictive contract tied to the appearance. Rather than quietly sign it, he wrote an email criticizing the terms and sent it to other musicians.   The message, often credited as being the first to go viral, spread like wildfire throughout the industry.   Within days, the band was fielding interview requests from outlets including CNN, CNBC, the Los Angeles Times, Entertainment Weekly, and Spin and Wired. Universal executives threatened legal action. Then, in one of the stranger reversals in the memoir, the conversation shifted from suing The Rosenbergs to potentially signing them. Courtney Love reached out in support, and Fagin soon found himself breaking bread with Iovine in NYC whilst discussing how the two sides might resolve the standoff.   The episode pushed Fagin into the center of the emerging debate over artists, record labels and the internet. He began appearing on industry panels alongside figures including Jerry Harrison and Tina Weymouth of Talking Heads, Chuck D, Darryl McDaniels, Bob Ezrin and others, arguing for greater artist control at precisely the moment file sharing was beginning to destabilize the traditional record business.   In hindsight, The Rosenbergs seemed to have a strange habit of arriving early.   The Rosenbergs were one of the earliest acts to experience an industry-wide viral moment, before “going viral” became part of the cultural vocabulary and things like MP3’s were thought to be Star Wars droids. Years earlier, the group had also been involved in an ambitious attempt at one of the first live rock concerts streamed over the internet, only to watch the technology collapse in real time. Later, The Rosenbergs would structure a maverick-yet-unconventional deal that allowed them to retain ownership of their masters and would partner directly with Napster at the height of the file-sharing wars.

Photo caption: David Fagin; Photo credit: Noah Arkwright

Long before artist-owned masters, direct-to-fan digital distribution and viral music-industry moments became common talking points, Fagin and The Rosenbergs had already stumbled into all three. The recurring irony, and one of the book’s central themes, is that being early rarely meant being rewarded for it.   That Farmclub controversy also caught the attention of King Crimson’s Robert Fripp and his business partner David Singleton, who approached The Rosenbergs about becoming part of Discipline Global Mobile, their artist-focused independent company. The resulting agreement allowed the band to retain ownership of its masters and attempted to create a different relationship between artist and label years before ownership of masters became a mainstream music-business conversation.   The experiment was noble, complicated and, in classic Fagin fashion, financially disastrous.   The Rosenbergs then aligned themselves with Napster while much of the recording industry was trying to destroy it. Napster sponsored the band’s tour, put The Rosenbergs on its homepage and helped manufacture a special two-disc edition of the band’s album Mission: You, with a second “file-sharing” copy specifically intended for fans to give to friends. Thousands joined the band’s mailing list almost immediately. Their poor bass player was tasked with entering each address by hand, Amish-style.   To their utter dismay,  the band soon discovered many of those new fans were too young to enter the clubs where The Rosenbergs had been booked to perform.   Thus, they dubbed it the No Fans Allowed Tour.   That combination of genuine music-business history and almost comically bad timing runs throughout Confessions of a Musical Masochist.

Fagin recounts sharing bills with artists including Duran Duran, No Doubt, The Strokes, Supergrass, Echo & the Bunnymen, Modern English,Night Ranger, Big Star’s Alex Chilton and others. He writes about kicking a soccer ball around an empty theater with Liam Gallagher during Oasis’ first U.S. tour; getting booted off the bill at the last minute at Bush’s first show in the states, working behind the scenes on concerts for U2, The Who, KISS, Stone Temple Pilots, Beck, Beastie Boys, Sheryl Crow, the Allman Brothers and Neil Diamond; watching Bob Dylan disappear from a festival before his band had seemingly finished; and attempting to pitch his own music to Butch Vig while working a Garbage concert, an act that nearly got him fired.   There is also the morning Fagin appeared on The Howard Stern Show alongside his childhood idol Gene Simmons, after convincing Simmons to join a discussion about record-industry treatment of artists. The Rosenbergs waited for hours, finally made it into the studio, and then watched much of their presence disappear from the television edit.   It was another fitting chapter in a career filled with moments when Fagin appeared to be inches from the center of the action, only to somehow remain on the outside. Like his landing the theme for Jenna Elfman’s CBS sitcom that followed the gargantuan Two and Half Men, then watching as the network slowly killed the show.   Behind the celebrity stories is a less glamorous reality familiar to generations of working musicians: playing empty rooms, sleeping on floors, driving through the night, losing money on tours, begging clubs for bookings then being blacklisted, replacing unreliable band members, funding recordings on credit cards and repeatedly watching supposedly career-changing opportunities disappear. To the point where he now compares himself to ‘Reek,’ the tortured, castrated former prince, courtesy of the Game of Thrones saga.   “In short, this is not a story about success. Or failure. It’s a story about survival,” Fagin writes. “And, while it’s no doubt hard to keep a successful band going, keeping an unsuccessful one going is even harder.”   That perspective eventually led Fagin through several musical reinventions. He spent years touring with journalist Rob Tannenbaum in the satirical duo Good for the Jews, later built a career performing with his Jersey shore cover band The Counterfeiters, and today fronts The Wankers, his deliberately over-the-top Britpop tribute built around Fagin’s alter ego, “Damon Gallagher.”   Tannenbaum’s foreword sets the tone for the book by cheerfully admitting he did not read it before writing it. After years performing alongside Fagin, he explains that he had already heard his friend’s best stories repeatedly and his worst stories even more often. He ultimately recommends the book anyway, particularly to anyone considering a career in entertainment. As a warning.   But beneath Fagin’s sarcasm and self-deprecation is a deeply personal story.   He grew up in a show-business household in New Jersey. His mother, Diane, performed for decades throughout the Catskills and had recorded for Decca and MGM as a young singer before her recording career collided with the upheaval surrounding the payola era. His father, Richard, was at once Fagin’s harshest critic, financial safety net, occasional manager and eventually his biggest supporter.   Their complicated relationship becomes one of the emotional through-lines of the book, culminating in Fagin’s dedicating the book to him.   For Fagin, the stories eventually add up to a question that extends far beyond music: What does success actually mean when the dream you have spent your life chasing never arrives in the form you expected? Further, what happens when it turns into a nightmare?   At an age when many musicians have long since traded vans, loading docks and empty clubs for stability, health insurance, and “something to fall back on”, Fagin is still playing. He’s still booking gigs. At least, trying to. And, against substantial evidence that the universe may be trying to tell him something, like Wile E. Coyote, he still believes tomorrow might be the day.   Confessions of a Musical Masochist: My Life As An Almost Rockstar will be released September 22nd, 2026 through Scout Media / Noshpit Entertainment.   http://www.davidfagin.net/